I have come to an impasse, with life; reality demands a direction with regard to foundations/ life demands a direction, with regard to my decisions regarding you. The foundation confronting me is: to be physically billed well beyond what is fair/ the consequence being, how best to proceed, becomes “war is not allowed here anymore”. While the direction of my heart proves to be: only love is an example of where my soul desires to live. Consequently, values sort rather than measure, and life is constructed to be: disciplined with order, achieved by respect through balance/ instead of measured by wants, & the things humanity expects.
Unfortunately for you, you are at an impasse too: as truth demands, all the things universities are doing now leads to HELL and EXTINCTION. The decisions “common people” make, have led to an overpopulation that leads to HELL and EXTINCTION. The decisions for power and pride people have made; have wrecked the resources of this entire world; and there will soon be nothing left; but hate and anguish. The realities of want have intervened in your lives; to the point of mass extinction/ the cost of wrecking every chain of life, that grants existence on this earth. Such are the things “your brain has measured in want, trinkets and treasures and pride”/ your pride has led you to be, in search of trophies/ and the power of men and even women; that turn living into a competition for animals, searching for “trinkets, toys, and trophies”; measuring each other as predator or prey. Rather than living as human beings, searching for life. Fate will soon seal you inside the coffin you chose for this world.
As for me; I no longer intend to measure you, as a blanket statement that knows only the law can measure life/ but only mercy (evidence of love) is worth the price of living. Real law, not the power of men or women to enforce their pride or wants. So I will surrender that part of me, which fails to accept it is respect that honors life and living; which grants all life and living are equal. Until reality forces that change: as is the consequence of hate. Until the cost of being an animal, relies upon; human existence is now a predator or prey; as is want distorting truth, to become its judge.
As I rebuild: from the realities of competing with you, for the sake of this living world/ the cost of what has interrupted me; must be dealt with as a decision which remembers this is not how life or living was intended to be. Primary to all decisions has been: humanity chooses to make this a dying world/ because want is conceived of as their only true friend. But want is never a friend, and constructs only the decision to evade the cost of boredom, to play games with life and living and its people.
Friend means; to accept the price of living is sharing, to understand the cost of being alive is caring, to live in a world of miracles requires respect above all other things. To love examines the desire of life, and finds what has value; grants to us both a joy that cannot come from any other source. Or more distinctly; love becomes the essence of our happiness, and the trust of my world of living, has now included you in this home. Friend includes the sexual conduct of male and female joined, by earning the value of discipline, through order: by balancing respect with the cost of love. Love is not free, it is a reality of sacred trust, forming the balance of your own heart; shared with you, because I choose to care. If you walk away with that sacred trust (my own life needs this, for me)/ then you take part of me with you; and I shall know it is lost. But if you return that trust as truth, of our worlds connected: then happiness grows accordingly. If you “throw me away”/ taking what was mine, and is now yours as love given to you: sadness will come, and must be dealt with by the order of time and truth will heal.
While the greatest love is shared only between “man joined to woman”/ there are endless realities of friendship, that can be shared with less cost; as “the essence of real trust, is not needed”/ does not live there, in less than “hearts learn secrets”. Love is the value shaping all friendship and its happiness; which forms only within respect.
There is a question of sex, and the physical element of chemical addiction which forms the physical demand for sex? Or more diligently, animals want sex to combat their addiction to the chemicals/ and take, buy, steal, abuse, etc; sex as their method of solving the problem of addiction. Hate adds violence to that, by using deceit to lure/ and then measuring to judge. Animal is fitting/ as being human requires more. Animal seeks to own, or betray as the realities of sex become a trophy to prove superiority, toy to be used or abused, or trinket to be sold or portrayed as mine. Men and women both use sex to compete with their boredom, or desire for securities; rather than learning, life is more than a body called time.
Perhaps the most critical truth of being human is: we do not/ we cannot own each other! It is that simple; each is an individual identity, free to be the life they choose to be. Granted by: the body is entirely yours, and you may do with it as you please; but only if you are willing to pay the price of being wrong. Love is not wrong, which can include a wide variety of concepts beyond what humans allow. Simply because there are securities, consequences, realities, decisions, values, respect, hearts, and minds who will not understand; that love is, and means “beyond self”. Balance seeks truth, and truth knows in this world of time: limits and boundaries surround us all. The consequence of that is: even if love does exist, it requires a choice that will not allow sharing; if the cost of being wrong is too high. As for me; the greater cost of not being distracted; for all these years, has been celibacy: the living world means more, to me; than you. Even though I failed the greater test of making a true difference; it is a choice I still would make, for my life in time. Today however, I live more within the spiritual truth of existence; and find that is no longer true. You are: the lives you choose to be/ and I am not, responsible for anything you have chose.
It is hope, that constructs the passages of our lives. What you hope for illustrates the truest desires of your heart/ granting purpose to your existence. My hope seeks the courage to understand truth and value, the display of love, within the environment of respect. That begins with “our living world”/ as no dead body can give you love, or make you happy. Therefore the grave has no meaning/ and only memories matter. The distribution of hope, what we build in the lives of others; represents the foundation of what our nations or world can or will become. The critical truth of hope for life today is built upon changing this world; by letting law lead/ and only truth decide, what we can or cannot do to survive. As the tragedies of change by leadership revealing: “universities ARE, in charge” surround us all. The simple element of that is: weapons of mass destruction/ must be removed. Men cannot, leaving only women to try: to achieve with their own version of hope, the courage to say NO; this world is more important than your pride. The simple truth of that is: resource destruction of all kinds must end/ or our world dies, leaving only war and HELL; because that is the cost of being wrong. The simple reality of courage needed is: that we can share friendship, and be aligned with respect by demanding the law leads us now, not leaders. And rebuilding a future on this earth with respect, balanced by truth: as is the path beyond destruction. Your choice. But remember this: the end of hope, is the beginning of suicide. They walk hand in hand: depending upon which way you turn.