Our lives, are fundamentally shaped, by the environment where we are born. Some grow to be flowers blooming in desolation/ while others can only be considered weeds, in a garden where they do not belong. Life is not fair, therefore accept that life is worth the price of where you begin; and adjust as best you can, to what is the value, beyond self.
Want identifies self, as “me, me, me/ it should all be mine”. Or more simply want is directional, and it applies whatever lies can be found; to make life appear as you want it to be/ rather than how it is; are used. Pride is selfishness; blatantly trying to prove superiority; by winning/ or with revenge, then by losing, I have a right. While power transforms the living: into who gets to be the judge. Some ridicule, some gossip, some are violent, some measure harshly; but all judge I am the only one that matters; you do not.
None of that, is functionally derived from thought: it is “the animal way”.
Thought accepts the miracle of life is a gift, and we do owe at a minimum; our respect to existence; as a living example of what love, cherished by thought, can do with energy, on our behalf. That is directional too: but it points to miracles, instead of self. Nature designed by discipline, order, balance; with love (didn’t have to be); is a blessing. Finding ways to be honest with life and planet; is a duty; which universities and their cult followers hate.
The critical test of survival is truth. Truth survives, because it has no choice; “it is true”. But laws reveal that truth can be dismantled, to reveal that the energy has a choice; if you made no commitment to identity. More distinctly thought holds energy within its dimensions. If the boundaries fail/ so does existence.
The challenge is then to construct, a value that limits intrusions “to love”. Which is known to offer both the grace of GOD in joy/ and the heartbreak of people who have run away, with a piece of your heart. The love that keeps us all alive; as became the truth of miracles binding trust instead of self: to our soul.
It is, necessary to give your life to GOD first! Because anything less makes the foundation of who you are vulnerable to attack. It is necessary, that the values which identify the truth of who we have become; to be second; because unless we sustain the reality of self defined by truth/ we cannot live either. It is necessary, that all those who would enter our hearts, should be considered as “third”; because these are allowed to enter the dimension that creates the boundaries of our soul. Too many, or too harsh; heartbreaks, and we do become small, in our ability to return love. Time must be used to rebuild, it is required; no exceptions.
Our reality is: NOBODY is perfect, and that does mean: if we do not forgive/ we live alone/ if they do not forgive us, we live alone. But life grants: that every miracle is in partnership with life itself; and that gift of life can sustain us, even if human love will not. The essence of being male is a truth. The essence of being female is a truth; and within these laws of reality, the fundamental spiritual truth is; we are not alone. Unless we choose to abandon their desire (as is male/ or as is female/ these are not the same; and cannot be reshaped). But even so: if you step off the edge of spiritual truth; as is a true decision to die from off this world. The only way back, is in the opposite direction of what you were. VERY very few, enter the spiritual world/ far less survive it; and that means this redefinition of life; is extremely rare.
As for me: the life back into time, from the spiritual definition of being turned around. Even though it was not my intent. The reality is: the opposite view, has become the opposite kind of living as well. Reality says to me: I am different/ I have been disassembled, from what I was as male; and will now be reassembled as the spiritual female dimension desires. There is no escape; I have tried. I don’t know how it ends, and would never have predicted this for myself; “if given a million years”. Utterly “without” male intent. NO, there is nothing “homosexual or other”; that is your lie. Instead: this is strictly between “female and I”; and appears to be: completely at the mercy of what women desire. That is the separation from animal (want); to the destiny of human being alive (desire formed by truth). How, what, where, when, who, why; I have no clue. I feel like, there is nothing left but pieces, of the male I used to be. Why, I do not know.
It seems likely, to me; that spiritual woman is going to rebuild what she desires male to be. Or maybe its for revenge, against men; by using me; no clue? Regardless, my life and living have both changed. The opposite of everything; “can’t exercise/ can’t work/ can’t repair/ can’t finish what I start/ forced to quit, when things get lost/ the list is long; feelings are weird; tits are weird, an endless demand for attention (they won’t leave me alone). No, nothing gay about it; just “traded places 9I get to be wife/ she gets to be husband: YOU WILL learn why women want better”; with a long list of no you can’t. Its complicated; no, not a clue, what I am suppose to do with that information?
So, I guess this is now “a blog”; not a personal diary, but not what I would write just for me, or the work; long list of: yes you will, as well. Reality then asks: what is so important, about what I would do? If I died today, what is important, that I did not do? So, I am just learning how to sigh (let it go). The answer to that is very simple: nothing is important once the body dies (you made your decisions)/ the only thing important that is left behind is, what I did or did not do, for life and world, that remains on earth. Therefore I refuse to be frustrated; nothing I wish to do is critical to anyone. While everything I would do, in favor of life and earth; is no longer a decision that I can make; NOT my job. In actual fact; that decision belongs to the spiritual woman with who lives with me; a prediction of Revelation 12 and 17. Or perhaps I with her; or whatever this is. Never lose hope, surrender the last little bit; to no one: GOD may save this world, or HE may not; no one knows but our CREATOR.
ONLY a true fool, does not see the miracles of life and earth; that prove beyond doubt: “only thought can build this”. WAY beyond us; no matter who you are.
I do recommend www.justtalking7.info (there were 7 just talking sites; last one).
I seem to be “not me” in writing this; just another change.